Admitting your wrong.

So today I fucked up. In a sense. I mean Im trying to own up to it, but fuck man what the hell am I seriously supposed to do? Heres the shortened version of the story- Im at my city job I notice a guy walk through the office attempting to avoid paying the whopping $5 fee, I step outside and call him out and he gives me every excuse under the sun about why he shouldnt pay. Yeah whatever man rules are the rules its $5 and $5 to rent pads so $10. I get more lip and blah blah blah. Then I see that my new best friend has a buddy with him and its much of the same nonsense with him. Claims his wallet is in the car etc etc etc. I tell him its gonna be $10 and he can head down and get the wallet if he wants to ride. more and more attitude ensues and one of the genius boys mumbles the word bullshit. Its America the land of the entitled where a $7million dollar facility should never try to charge a meager $5 cuz thats down right robbery right? Joke. Anyway I go back and forth with Beavis and Butthead for a few minutes the story changes but its the same old song and dance and eventually it escalates to them letting me and my co worker know that we are being "fuckin dicks" mind you we are around kids and that shit doesnt fly with me. I immediately let them know that they definitely wont be skating my facility today and they are welcome to leave at this point. Matter of fact Im asking them to leave. I get met with some more choice words from one of my little cupcake buddies and the other just has a death stare fixation on me. Oooooh we have a challenger over here? Really? So I let them know they can leave or if they would rather have a plastic badge toting ranger come ask them to leave we can go that route too but we are all adults so doesnt need to go there. Choice words come again and I glance and mr look of death is still locked in on me. Well lets just settle this really quick. I let him know that if he has something that hasnt been resolved I would be off work at 6pm and would gladly be willing to work out any issues he might have. He immediately goes into the victim role at this point. And thats when I was confused. You mean you wanna run your mouth and tell me Im a fuckin dick and an asshole for doing my job, and then when you stare me down and puff your chest up and I invite you to discuss the situation further you all of a sudden feel threatened? Oh the bullying only gets to go one direction? What a joke. The ranger comes and kicks the pair of idiots out, and then tells me that he should file a police report of the incident for me threatening the guy? WTF. City service I tell you its quite the fucking thankless job. Ridiculous. Thats all. Rant over. I was wrong should have just let him keep going and then let him skate the park cuz thats less controversial. #respectiseverything

Wet behind the ears...

Man oh man I had a rare situation occur tonight and it was pretty refreshing. Im waiting in line to order some food at a bbq spot and im with 2 friends, we somehow get separated in the line and a young girl is between us. We continue to chat back and forth and eventually she works her way into the conversation. We are a joking group so we loop her right into the convo and keep it going, she then asks to have dinner with us, of course we say yes because she is nice and so far fun. This isnt turning into a crazy story so if excitement is what you seek this story aint it LOL. She eats with us and picks our brains about all sorts of stuff, she was just young as can be still in highschool and just wet behind the ears as they say and happily clueless about life. It was refreshing to see and just listen to her outlooks and stuff and get a glimpse into what a highschool kid thinks is important these days. She got a call from her mom at some point and had to get herself home so she left off in a hurry. But it was an interesting time and it was really refreshing to see someone who is just open as a book, and just a ball of outlooks and vision. Good times. I need to meet randoms more often seriously.

Order$

I swear I wish I had a tally on how much money I move around in orders a week. Easily this week I sent out a few different orders for my city job all $1000+ and then my hospital gig I move around order after order for way more money. All this money floating around can I get a cut of it? Please?

Just rantin'

I dont know why specifically but I been in a bitching and complaining mood lately for sure. Haha always good to have a blog as a soundboard to bounce shit off :) And close friends to text and talk ears off and have them use me for the same reasons. LOL its a vicious cycle! Applying for a job tonight for my old warehouse location, they need an assistant manager and inventory analyst spot filled and although Im not qualified on paper Im applying anyway, figure if they wanna take a chance I already know I can hit a homerun working for them. Might be a slight pay cut though but Ill worry about that if I get to that point. Fingers crossed it works out and if it doesnt it's another one of those oh well no big deal scenarios. Ive found a good niche where I am not complaining too much about the money im making and deciding my own schedule for the most part. The way I see it cant lose anything by throwing my name in the ring... #fuckit Really juiced on heading over to Vegas in a few weeks and think I might start going more often like I used to a few years ago. Things were fun and life felt simpler back then and I feel like I would be better off doing that again, traveling keeps me refreshed I just need to quit trying to stay a homebody when that shit just aint for me. Fuck it between vegas and the national race schedule Im tryna be out and about more. Yeah thats the plan, or is it? LOL confused.

Throwback photo Fresno Am Jam announcing with the homie Waylan behind me casting judgement!

Cali Livin' and Vegas Trippin~

Just booked a flight to Vegas for a few days mid month. Home life has been a bit of a stressball and Im burned out on it so to relax for a few I figure a 72 hour Vegas retreat should balance me out a bit. The homie Carla been going through it with some job shit, so I figure we can be the misery loves company pair LOL. It aint nearly as bad as I may make it seem but its definitely a credible excuse to go soak in that 702 sun. Been getting the chance to hit fridays at the track again and pleased with how quick I got back into "fair" shape, been really debating on trying to shred and get fast again but it definitely takes up some time and I am thinking I care more about stacking up cash right now. But thats a swaying thing so I can see some more race trips in the future and a sprint program of sorts, time to get back to the glory days LOL. Thats all for now not too much to blog but had to keep the loyal few who read entertained.

Hmmmmmm

I find myself in a bit of a pickle this week. Ill try to explain this as simple as possible but likely nobody will understand but thats ok cuz only 3.5 people read my blog anyway :) So my favorite rapper Killer Mike has a hasthtag he uses cuz he is pretty vocal about things that matter to him and it reads #killyourmasters which means basically in a sense kill the people oppressing you. Someone keeping you down kill that shit. Its an aggressive stance but to some like myself think it isn't an aggressive stance at all just a necessary step in some situations. Am I going to kill anyone? Of course not. Now on the flip side Im a huge fan of Robert Greene who wrote 48 laws of power and rule #1 is to "never outshine the master" It's a great chapter in the book and it basically explains my situation perfectly. You can google and I highly recommend you read that book anyway cuz its great. So onto my situation and Ill try and give background briefly. 5 years or so ago I wanted dirt jumps at my skatepark, I email my big boss Cindy and she says let me see what I can do. I line up a meeting with Cindy and the director and get the ball SLOWLY rolling. Fast forward and here we are about 3months from the build. It has turned into a mess of a project but whatever Im glad its getting done either way. I attend a meeting last week with the same director and he is asking for a volunteer to start marketing and making stuff happen, at first I wanted someone else to take that role because Im so busy, nobody bit at the chance so I emailed him later that night and told him I was up for the task. Then the next day he declines my offer? Even though he asked for a person which was weird but here is where it gets odd. My immediate boss and his boss and then one level above him "supposedly" have issue with me emailing my director without CCing them or getting their permission... Like ummmm wtf? If I have built a relationship and email this guy for stuff and work related nonsense all the time why should I now include you or ask your permission for decisions? I dont feel that is necessary and its downright silly. So now I am at the point where I  either say fuck all the "authority" figures and keep doing shit my own way. Or take the route of going the route of me doing all the work CCing them and letting them share in the fruits of all my labor and work? The city has whored me out for years and has never assisted me as far as Im concerned so what would even be new at this point? But I guess since it's just obvious I should be doing this stuff that it's hard for me to swallow that I wasnt given the thumbs up from the start? IONO. Someone solve it for me because Im not sure which way Im going but I def know its going to get ugly at some point. I say if it is going to get ugly might as well be while I steer the boat right? LOL

#killyourmasters but "never outshine them either"

Paying it forward...

First of all this is NEVER to toot my own horn or ego stroke or any of that bullshit by any means. Its just my observation and my thoughts on stuff. Being thankful is for some a moment, or a fleeting thought, or a single gesture. For me its a mindset. Ive been fortunate enough to literally be given more than I could imagine from and through BMX. I am so thankful for the situations and opportunities provided to me that its my mental obligation to not just give back to make sure that I give back and push forward so that a future generation of kids get the same opportunities. Somebody asked me this evening what I was doing and I explained to them that I was ordering up a few bikes for some camp kids that I knew. I wasnt paying for them the parents were but I was helping out by passing along a discount and making it possible. Sure I dont "have to" but in all seriousness I definitely HAVE TO. If it takes 20-30min of my time to research bike sizes and what not, and I have to email a bit with the parents its all irrelevant because I owe it to the future. Someone did things for me at one time and I will definitely leave my mark going forward for the kids behind me. I could only imagine if I were to win the lottery or something what kind of crazy things I would do for the kids coming up. Im setting up a little scooter comp right now for my local kids at my city job and Im super stoked on doing custom acrylic awards for them. I know for me its memories, friendships, and lots of stuff that you take away from these golden years and a dope trophy thats a one off is always a cool thing to have around to start a conversation and spark hopefully the next wave of someone paying stuff forward. So for those who wonder why I work my city job and why I still do the random things like that when I clearly dont have the time hopefully you see why. It isn't for my benefit but its simply something I owe for the people who did it for me, now imagine if everyone did that kind of thing in some sense. As the world gets crazier and crazier we all should help the next generation and raise them up right. #payitforward