Just rantin'

I dont know why specifically but I been in a bitching and complaining mood lately for sure. Haha always good to have a blog as a soundboard to bounce shit off :) And close friends to text and talk ears off and have them use me for the same reasons. LOL its a vicious cycle! Applying for a job tonight for my old warehouse location, they need an assistant manager and inventory analyst spot filled and although Im not qualified on paper Im applying anyway, figure if they wanna take a chance I already know I can hit a homerun working for them. Might be a slight pay cut though but Ill worry about that if I get to that point. Fingers crossed it works out and if it doesnt it's another one of those oh well no big deal scenarios. Ive found a good niche where I am not complaining too much about the money im making and deciding my own schedule for the most part. The way I see it cant lose anything by throwing my name in the ring... #fuckit Really juiced on heading over to Vegas in a few weeks and think I might start going more often like I used to a few years ago. Things were fun and life felt simpler back then and I feel like I would be better off doing that again, traveling keeps me refreshed I just need to quit trying to stay a homebody when that shit just aint for me. Fuck it between vegas and the national race schedule Im tryna be out and about more. Yeah thats the plan, or is it? LOL confused.

Throwback photo Fresno Am Jam announcing with the homie Waylan behind me casting judgement!

Cali Livin' and Vegas Trippin~

Just booked a flight to Vegas for a few days mid month. Home life has been a bit of a stressball and Im burned out on it so to relax for a few I figure a 72 hour Vegas retreat should balance me out a bit. The homie Carla been going through it with some job shit, so I figure we can be the misery loves company pair LOL. It aint nearly as bad as I may make it seem but its definitely a credible excuse to go soak in that 702 sun. Been getting the chance to hit fridays at the track again and pleased with how quick I got back into "fair" shape, been really debating on trying to shred and get fast again but it definitely takes up some time and I am thinking I care more about stacking up cash right now. But thats a swaying thing so I can see some more race trips in the future and a sprint program of sorts, time to get back to the glory days LOL. Thats all for now not too much to blog but had to keep the loyal few who read entertained.

Hmmmmmm

I find myself in a bit of a pickle this week. Ill try to explain this as simple as possible but likely nobody will understand but thats ok cuz only 3.5 people read my blog anyway :) So my favorite rapper Killer Mike has a hasthtag he uses cuz he is pretty vocal about things that matter to him and it reads #killyourmasters which means basically in a sense kill the people oppressing you. Someone keeping you down kill that shit. Its an aggressive stance but to some like myself think it isn't an aggressive stance at all just a necessary step in some situations. Am I going to kill anyone? Of course not. Now on the flip side Im a huge fan of Robert Greene who wrote 48 laws of power and rule #1 is to "never outshine the master" It's a great chapter in the book and it basically explains my situation perfectly. You can google and I highly recommend you read that book anyway cuz its great. So onto my situation and Ill try and give background briefly. 5 years or so ago I wanted dirt jumps at my skatepark, I email my big boss Cindy and she says let me see what I can do. I line up a meeting with Cindy and the director and get the ball SLOWLY rolling. Fast forward and here we are about 3months from the build. It has turned into a mess of a project but whatever Im glad its getting done either way. I attend a meeting last week with the same director and he is asking for a volunteer to start marketing and making stuff happen, at first I wanted someone else to take that role because Im so busy, nobody bit at the chance so I emailed him later that night and told him I was up for the task. Then the next day he declines my offer? Even though he asked for a person which was weird but here is where it gets odd. My immediate boss and his boss and then one level above him "supposedly" have issue with me emailing my director without CCing them or getting their permission... Like ummmm wtf? If I have built a relationship and email this guy for stuff and work related nonsense all the time why should I now include you or ask your permission for decisions? I dont feel that is necessary and its downright silly. So now I am at the point where I  either say fuck all the "authority" figures and keep doing shit my own way. Or take the route of going the route of me doing all the work CCing them and letting them share in the fruits of all my labor and work? The city has whored me out for years and has never assisted me as far as Im concerned so what would even be new at this point? But I guess since it's just obvious I should be doing this stuff that it's hard for me to swallow that I wasnt given the thumbs up from the start? IONO. Someone solve it for me because Im not sure which way Im going but I def know its going to get ugly at some point. I say if it is going to get ugly might as well be while I steer the boat right? LOL

#killyourmasters but "never outshine them either"