Hmmmmmm

I find myself in a bit of a pickle this week. Ill try to explain this as simple as possible but likely nobody will understand but thats ok cuz only 3.5 people read my blog anyway :) So my favorite rapper Killer Mike has a hasthtag he uses cuz he is pretty vocal about things that matter to him and it reads #killyourmasters which means basically in a sense kill the people oppressing you. Someone keeping you down kill that shit. Its an aggressive stance but to some like myself think it isn't an aggressive stance at all just a necessary step in some situations. Am I going to kill anyone? Of course not. Now on the flip side Im a huge fan of Robert Greene who wrote 48 laws of power and rule #1 is to "never outshine the master" It's a great chapter in the book and it basically explains my situation perfectly. You can google and I highly recommend you read that book anyway cuz its great. So onto my situation and Ill try and give background briefly. 5 years or so ago I wanted dirt jumps at my skatepark, I email my big boss Cindy and she says let me see what I can do. I line up a meeting with Cindy and the director and get the ball SLOWLY rolling. Fast forward and here we are about 3months from the build. It has turned into a mess of a project but whatever Im glad its getting done either way. I attend a meeting last week with the same director and he is asking for a volunteer to start marketing and making stuff happen, at first I wanted someone else to take that role because Im so busy, nobody bit at the chance so I emailed him later that night and told him I was up for the task. Then the next day he declines my offer? Even though he asked for a person which was weird but here is where it gets odd. My immediate boss and his boss and then one level above him "supposedly" have issue with me emailing my director without CCing them or getting their permission... Like ummmm wtf? If I have built a relationship and email this guy for stuff and work related nonsense all the time why should I now include you or ask your permission for decisions? I dont feel that is necessary and its downright silly. So now I am at the point where I  either say fuck all the "authority" figures and keep doing shit my own way. Or take the route of going the route of me doing all the work CCing them and letting them share in the fruits of all my labor and work? The city has whored me out for years and has never assisted me as far as Im concerned so what would even be new at this point? But I guess since it's just obvious I should be doing this stuff that it's hard for me to swallow that I wasnt given the thumbs up from the start? IONO. Someone solve it for me because Im not sure which way Im going but I def know its going to get ugly at some point. I say if it is going to get ugly might as well be while I steer the boat right? LOL

#killyourmasters but "never outshine them either"